On March 26th 1996 at around 9:00 am, my mother had finally done it... she had made a mistake she won't soon regret, she gave birth to her third son...ME! CJ the youngest of three siblings, one over achieving sister and one athletic but trouble making brother and there's me and well I'm sort of in the middle. I was never an overachiever like my sister, in fact I would usually be the kid that would spend the class cracking jokes with friends and then borrowing someone else's notes and passing with good grades, yeah I was "that" kid. As a child my parents put me on every sport they could find including baseball which was my family's passion especially my fathers. Although I found some of them fun, none of them really clicked with me so I would quit quickly, I would usually prefer staying home playing games or watching movies rather than doing something active which is something that I would later regret greatly. As a kid that didn't really do anything sporty growing up I would just end up finding any new and interesting way to entertain myself, it would usually involve some way to make people laugh or annoyed, not always one or the other but just some way to get a reaction from them just because I was that curious.
I remember this joke that my family would always tell me that my nickname CJ wasn't because of my name but instead it meant "Como Jode". Due to this "habit" of mine of trying to get reactions from people I ended up creating some good friends that would stay with me till this very day but the coin flip of this is that I would get into fights rather frequently with my brother and at school, this lead to me having some built up anger inside. It was when this was happening that my father decided me to put me in contact sports like MMA and Jiu Jitsu and this is when I started to have a passion for sports. I had finally found something that clicked with me and that was one of the best experiences of my life. The jui jitsu group that I was in was like another family to me and my sensei was like another guardian that helped me accept myself and work harder for my goals. This affected me very positively because both my parents and the jiu jitsu club expected good grades from me for me to continue practicing, obviously I was more motivated than ever so I gave it my 100% and finished my 10th grade with all A's.
Sadly this came to crashing end one day where I dislocated my right knee for a second time during practice, the pain was unbelievable and I almost started crying ( almost I said almost dammit), and after this injury they told me that I had to have my knee operated on and that I could no longer continue practicing mma due to health problems, and even nowadays I have to use special braces on my legs to correct my movement. Even through all of this I took some time off to think I got back up, regained my confidence and manage to get back to my comedic and friendly self. After the injury my last 2 years of high school weren't that great for me academically because I went back to my old ways of copying someone else's notes moments before a test but still I had a great time and somehow even managed to graduate with honors. The after effects of mma still linger and I still crave that level of physical exhilaration from time to time so I enrolled in a gym and along with some friends I can get some good work done although I do sometimes miss the tatami. Another thing I haven't mentioned is that I'm a huge fan of metalcore bands and Parkway Drive is that band that is like my special place, whenever I listen to their music it just makes me feel alive.
Inspirational!!
ReplyDeleteHopefully one day you would be able to find your passion.
Man you broke my heart really. Don't worry about the future. I know that you will find something that you really love. Keep being what you are and don't what to society wants to.
ReplyDeleteMy brother is also on a martial arts team! And almost (almost) had something similar to your injury with the knee, all though he didn't dislocate his knee, he has some liquid buildup on one of his knees which causes him some pain when he walks, and is currently undergoing physical therapy. But either way, even though jui jujitsu was something you had to give up because you didn't have another choice, I'm sure that in the future you will find something that will click with you again! And also, I love hearing some new music! I would love for you to recommend me some new bands! Already looking up Parkway Drive
ReplyDeleteDam, CJ. It's always a shame to see a fellow friend lose the opportunity to express their passion, such as you with BJJ. I'm no doctor, but sometimes they say that you can't do something, like BJJ and maybe they are wrong. I don't know if you can go back, but you won't miss anything from trying and looking up info on it. Just a thought. I would die if something wouldn't let me take on my hobby. I know if it happened, there would have to be someway to continue it ... again, just a thought.
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